The Gift of Life

One morning, I woke up and couldn’t breathe.

In the moments that followed I silently begged G-d to help me, to save me, to return to me the gift I had taken for granted. Those were the most heartfelt prayers I had ever uttered, and when finally I could smell and taste the air again, I cried out to G-d in thanks.

I will never forget this episode as long as I live.

The feeling of choking and spluttering and gasping for air, as my lungs terrifyingly closed up, was not one which will leave me in a hurry. When I began to breathe again, after what felt like hours of asphyxation, I felt sicker than I ever had done before in my life.

But I was alive.

As I recovered I said the morning prayers. Thanking G-d for my soul and body felt especially heartfelt after what had happened to me that morning, following a bout of sickness. I’ve not felt anything like it since, but it taught me a powerful- if terrifying- lesson.

Never take anything for granted.

The Jewish prayers are unique. Our tefillos are unlike those of any other faith. As a baal teshuvah- returnee to Judaism- I’ve been curious about many religions, and have read and explored their liturgies, hymns and prayer offerings. Within many of them, the central theme of thankfulness is present, but I’ve never seen it explored the way it is in Judaism.

In Judaism, thankfulness is before us every moment of our lives. We thank G-d when we wake up and go to sleep; before and after food; when we pray; when we wear new clothing, and even when we go to the bathroom. Life is one long expression of thanks to our Creator, through our words and through our deeds. This unique, constant thankfulness resonates with us all. When you’ve lost something or someone, you are engulfed with greif but aware of what you had. You realise, at last, how precious a gift G-d had given you.

But in Judaism, we don’t wait for loss to say thank you. We say it every day, for reasons not immediately obvious. Because often, these reasons are the most valid of all.


2 thoughts on “The Gift of Life

  1. Love this! I was also reminded when talking to a coworker that Jews have a very unique way of blessing. In other religions, a person blesses an object or another person or asks G-d to bless them. In Judaism, we bless G-d for everything he gives to us, large and small and even for the things we can’t yet see are for our good. It really turns the relationship into one much more about gratitude for what is given than constantly requesting and not acknowledging what is already given.

    I hope you continue to breathe easy!

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    1. Isn’t that AMAZING? This is one of the reasons why I love Judaism. All those brochos.

      Your last line made me laugh because, funnily enough, I had the exact same thing happen to me this morning except much worse! I’d say serendipitous but what’s serendipitous about choking and gasping and not being able to call an ambulance…?


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